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26 anni fra pochi giorni. E' il secondo compleanno che festeggio qui, sono arrivato esattamente un anno fa.
L'anno scorso, non conoscendo nessuno, non festeggiai; poi ero appena sceso a Ffm, i soldi scarseggiavano e allora, va be', tanta cazzi...
Ora, invece, non I just want to celebrate. I do not want certain people to come to me and greet me, I will not see their faces, I do not want their voices heard.
Maybe I should take my fucking ass to the door and start again.

I realize that I miss his physical contact with my friends. When I was in college it was all a hug, kiss, jostling but now, never both! There are greeted with a kiss, you do not accidentally miss hugs. Will that obviously leads to emotional distance in physical distance, but maybe it's also why I am so bad, in hindsight. And 'I'm here for a year and only now know a little less embarrassing to the person with whom I most associated. E I almost think I embarrassed myself, back: and of course! If all deal with the physical confidence as if it were the most precious thing in the world, I almost feel out of place to want to express even while alive physically, as I speak, while I laugh. At first, just arrived, I was "gay", what took the arm's "friends" because he is gay, which mentions a dance because he is gay, who gives a hug because he is gay. I remember well the embarrassment and the impatience of some people on the face. But no. I am very physical, as a person: If you are a "friend", why can not I hug you? Why you embarrassed and puffing, as if I were a freak, the elusive pink elephant in a tutu at the center of the room? And it hurts me twice: firstly because they consider me a friend enough to not judge the behavior that you consider weird, is because, by all the fault of my being "strange" to my sexual orientation, make me the subject of homophobia (and fuck, I would say). And the result is the fact that I always felt judged, a little 'because it is a hard mindset to be divested, a bit' because actually I was.
I could be wrong perspective and expect something that I can not have, eh! I see your reports, I see how you behave in your midst: however there is no physical contact goes without pay, is fuori legge come in Giappone, tutti vicini ma nessuno si tocchi. Ma dove cazzo è finita la fratellanza? Sacrificata sull'altare dell'individualità e del siamo-amici-ma-non-troppo?

Ora, sul serio, al di là del mio vissuto, una considerazione generale potrebbe essere: in un porto di mare come è la Nintendo, composta da persone che spesso non sanno che fare della propria vita e non si capisce bene cosa aspettino, è plausibile che io cerchi ancora qualche amicizia sincera?
Forse dovrei fare il grande passo e staccarmi emotivamente da quanti fino ad ora hanno condiviso la mia vita (e viceversa), così da poter cercare un appiglio sicuro fra conoscenze che non siano con la data di scadenza.

A me non va. Non mi sta bene non potermi sentire libero.